In Memoriam for Brian TURNER

I don’t think I ever imagined a world that didn’t have you in it. You were part of my growing up. Part of my becoming. Some of my earliest memories have you in them and now some of my deepest ache does too. I keep thinking about how lucky I was to be your grandson. You saw me through so many versions of myself, and I always appreciated that

I always thought it's strange how someone can be such a solid presence in your life, and then suddenly become a memory. But even in memory you still feel close. I catch glimpses of you in my own thoughts and in my reactions and just overall in the way I carry myself. It comforts me to believe that some part of who I am was shaped by you and that means you’re still here in ways that matter

I miss you more than I know how to say. Thank you for loving me the way you did. I will carry that love for the rest of my life

Thinking about you and the conversations we had and stories of days gone by. Miss you Brian x

4 years without you daddy. The pain doesn’t lessen and the memories of that morning are ever present in my mind and my heart. Knowing that you left my life hearing the song that you played daily since mama passed, knowing that mama came to take you home with her, feeling your heart stop and knowing your pain ceased makes me so sad but content that you were finally reunited with your one true love. I honour you in death as I did in life daddy, I abide with all your wishes and continue to love and respect you. I really don’t know how I’ve survived 4 years without you, I know that you and mama watch over us and you see everything. You are my heart and soul and you are always apart of me. God bless you my precious daddy in a million.
I love you all the world, moon and stars eternally.
Your Jayne xxxxx

Nothing could've prepared me for the day you died, a moment that cleaved time into a before and an after, leaving an indelible mark on the soul’s quiet fabric. Yet in the shadow of that loss I find solace in the elegance of your spirit and how it danced through life with a rare grace while illuminating corners I hadn’t known were dark. Your mind was always a constellation of wit and wisdom to me, still twinkles in memory, guiding me like stars over an uncharted sea. The world is lesser without you, but richer for the echoes you left behind. I love you Grandad, now and forever.

Not a day goes by that I dont think about you. I miss waking up every morning and seeing you. I miss being able to sit and watch TV with you and watch all the things we loved together. I miss being able to buy us both Oatcakes in the morning. You were my everything and shaped the person I am today and I will never forget that. I love you and will see you soon.