The obituary notice of Jean SUMMERSIDE (nee Kilgallon)

Happy heavenly Christmas mam and dad .Hope you's are well uptheir .Miss you so much down here .We will raise a glass for yous .Everyday is hard but Christmas is a little bit harder. Love and miss yous so much xxxxxxxxxx❤️💙

Well mam .Tomorrow is your memory .Five years since that horrible day .When our hearts were broken .That day will haunt me forever and i will never ever forget or ever be the same again .My heart is broken for ever .No one can ever understand what its like to lose your mam until it happens .I miss you as much now as i did then .You were our life ,my best friend ,my go to if need a chat or a problem .I keep thinking this time five years .It was the day we were told its a matter of days .The one where we had to ring and tell family .The one when all your grandchildren came to see you kissed you and told you they loved you .We didnt know if you were going to be here next day .Seeing them all say goodbye and crying broke my heart .I felt physically and emotionally drained .But you held on for one more day you weren't ready to leave us .I remember it all as if were yesterday and the grief feels as raw .Andy is going through it now with his mam .Hope you have seen her upthere. Iknow how he feels .Tomorrow is a hard day but we will be at yours and the cemetery with your flowers .I love and miss you so so much mam it doesn't get easier we have had to adjust and learn to live a life without you its just so hard .I kiss your photo three times everynight before bed and say goodnight love you .Just wish it was still ontop of your head .love you mam always in my heart and mind give dad a cuddle uptheir and tell him i love him too 🩷🩵❤️💜🧡💛💚🤎💙

Its just turned 12 midnight on the 12th sept .Your birthday. A day that is now filled with sadness because your not here. Wish we were coming to your house with presents but instead going to your resting place with flowers .Each year that passes dosnt get any easier .I need you down here with us .So much i want to talk to you about. Rant off too but i can't anymore .You were my rock my best friend my mam who i love and miss so much .I maybe 54 but i will always need you .I will be looking at photos and video of your last birthday with us .When we surprised you with a party .Never thinking it would be your last. But i am so pleased we did that for you .It was a special day for a special lady .Happy birthday mam i love and miss you always .Enjoy your day upthere with dad and family.We will be thinking of you down here .🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷

Happy Christmas mam and dad, sorry its late. Hope you had a lovely day up there. You are a big miss down here. Not the same now. Happy memories of Christmas past. Yous always made sure we had lovely Christmases. Everyday is hard but Christmas is not the same. Love and miss you so much. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxc

Four years today mam when you left your home for the final time. The day we had to say our final goodbye. Was one of the hardest days of my life. We tried to give you the best send off possible under the circumstances of covid. But I think we did you proud. And I hope we continue to do you proud. Love and miss you so much. Always in my heart and mind .🩷xxxxxxxxxxx

Four years today mam we were told it was going to be a matter of days for you. Was one of the hardest days. The family came you asked for music on and we played your favourite song by simply red. All the grandkids came and there partners to see you. Seeing them all say goodbye to you was heartbreaking. You managed to say one more night then on the 26th we were told it was imminent. You went with dad on 17.33 with all you family around you. Our lifes hasn't been the same since. We miss you so much. And im just lost. Tomorrow is your memory and we are setting the balloons off again for you. Hopefully all the family can be there but with work its hard for them. But if they can't they will be thinking of you. I couldnt sleep lastnight because I was thinking of you. And dread this time of year as it brings all those feelings back. Feels like yesterday. I cannot believe I haven't seen your beautiful little face for four years. I miss you so much and I always will. A girl always needs her mam no matter what age. Be a hard day tomorrow and even today as I think of the grandkids saying goodbye crying as didn't know if you would last the night. But no you wanted to stay with us one more day. Love you so much mam. I know you watch over us but I know you will be with us tomorrow. Love and miss you always 💗💗💗💗💗💗xxxxxxxxxxxx

4years today when I got told the awful news you were very ill. Was one of the hardest days of my life having to go and tell the family then coming to your house and pretend everything was ok .You only lasted four weeks after that .Your little body couldn't take anymore .We were lucky to keep you at home and continue to care for you. Wish I was still caring for you now. In four weeks time it will be four years when you gained your wings and four years on I still miss you as much now as I did then. Your always on my mind. Love you mam.so much 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷