The obituary notice of Kathryn CARTER

A big Happy birthday mum, I can’t believe it’s your second birthday without us with you mum, my god that year has flown but yet been so still. You should be here with me now so I can celebrate your day with you and give you your gifts and cakes.

You such a massive part of my life mum and I miss you so much. I miss being able to call you or ask your advice of things, I miss being able to rant to you. I just miss everything mum.

You taught me everything I needed to know in life but the only thing you never taught me is loving without you. That’s been the hardest and still is the hardest thing I have ever and will ever have to do.

I miss your cheeky smile and your infectious laugh. I miss you texting me and trying to wind me up. Life is just so unfair mum.

Today is all about you no matter how sad it will be for me but today is to celebrate your special day.

Ruby missing you loads and misses her best friend, she’s trying to wind me up lately mum watching that you know who man that I don’t like and she laughs to her self.

She’s finished uni now and where just waiting for her results. She is such a lovely child and her brain amazes me of how actually brainy she is as she doesn’t get any of that from me but I know what you would say. She gets it from her nan.

Chaus is doing ok he keeps chasing you in the garden that’s if it is you that keeps coming to play with him.

There is so much to tell you but you probably been watching anyway. Some days time stands still and other days it flys by and then it suddenly hits you again.

Stephen Michael doing ok too he’s had a rocky road but he seems to be getting somewhere now which you would be proud of. He takes after you with your strength courage and determination. He’s going to another concert on Friday so we won’t get to go shopping with each other this week.

Have the most magical birthday I hope you are relaxing. I love you mum never forget that.

Always and forever

Charlene xxxxx

P.s stay close mum

Hello mum, my God how has it been a year that you have been away?. It’s been a whole year that I havnt seen you or heard your voice or even got any voice notes off you. How life has changed mum. How strange it is and the fact life just has to go on as normal. We have never been apart from more than two weeks mum and we use to speak every day. Now I look to the sky to talk to you and wonder where you are, I look for clues to know if your near, I touch you room door just like your sleeping but your not here. It’s a horrible feeling mum and a bizzare one. Who have I got now to the my back and to gossip with. It’s a very strange time. One that I can’t put in to many words. Me and Carl have just got back from Amsterdam Trudy was ok on her own. Carl was in his eliminate as you can imagine. Bought you some tulips so we can plant for you all the way from Netherlands. Trudy nearly finished uni now oh yeah mum she’s going to Dublin on Saturday in her first girlie holiday. So Bailey going to meet Ziggy fat head. But don’t worry I'll look after him. Did you go anywhere nice, are you free? Are you rested and out of pain? I hear from Linda every now and again which is nice. Stephen Michael still takes me shopping and does my parcels. We’ve been buying Lego I know we don’t have space but we love it. Still no lottery win mum. Come on what you doing. Oh yeah in Amsterdam they had a loui shop and I was like is that a sign from my mum to buy one haha.oh we went in Madame tussades and we seen Thor for you and felt his b um. Anyways mum I love you always and forever stay close xxxx

It’s been 1 year.
1 year since I held your hand and sang you out of this life and into the next.
1 year since I last heard your laugh, felt your hugs, or saw your smile.
And it’s been so hard without you.

I hope you’re finally getting the peace you deserve—free from the pain and struggles you faced.
You were a warrior until the very end. Always joking, always smiling, always lifting us up even when you were the one suffering.
I miss you so much, and it never gets easier.
I miss my best friend, my movie buddy, my everything.
Not a day goes by where I don’t think of you, and I don’t think there ever will be.

Thank you for letting me know you’re still with me.
Whether you’re the bird that sits outside in the garden each day or not, I like to believe you are.
Thank you for the sunshine, for the beauty in the sky—I see you in it all.
It helps knowing I haven’t lost all of you. And I hope you’re not too annoyed at me for dressing you up for every holiday—I know, deep down, you enjoyed it. Just wait till you see what I’ve got planned for our favorite season.
(Yes, it involves Halloween decorations and a Winifred costume- you’d approve.)

I never truly understood how hard and strange grief would be.
I always thought it was something temporary—a short season of mourning before people told you to “move on.” But grief doesn’t follow a timeline. It lingers.It reshapes you. And in every moment, it reminds me that love never truly leaves. It reminds me of my favorite quote:
“Life may end, but love is eternal.”
And I feel that fits us perfectly.
You may be gone, but you’re not truly gone. You live in the quiet spaces, in memories that never fade,
in the love that still surrounds me,
in the little signs and strange moments where I know you’re still here.

I hope I continue to make you proud.
I’ll keep going. I’ll live this life for both of us. And when I look at the world, I’ll see it through your eyes, too.

I love you to the moon and back.
Keep dancing. Keep being you.
-Ruby

Happy Easter mum- the first Easter with out your happy chirpy little face. The first year you never bought me an Easter egg haha as you always bought me one and an advent calendar didn’t you mum no matter how old we were. Ruby misses you a lot I know she does but she’s nearly finished her first year in Uni mum. Carl been helping us a lot as-well especially if we need things or need to go anywhere which I know he always promised you he would take care of us. Where are you? Are you anywhere nice? We still haven't found our little home yet, hopefully one day. Bailey doing good too he has had a few vet visits but he misses you too especially giving you cuddles and kisses and weeing on your cushion. My god mum how do we keep going without you here, how does life just carry on? It’s bizzare. Everyone just gets on like nothing happened but it hits deeper for me mum because you where my best friend, my shopping buddy and my person to gossip with. I hope you had a nice Easter where ever you was mum. I hope you’re relaxed and having fun. Oh yeah the pope died an all. Had pneumonia. Love you always mum stay close by xxxx