Johnny,
You were my safe place when everything else was falling apart.
Whenever life became too much, somehow you always helped me get through another day. Sometimes all I needed was a night sitting with you, talking rubbish, being held, feeling safe, and somehow things felt manageable again afterwards.
What made you so special was that you never wanted anything from me. You understood that life is complicated. You understood that sometimes people don't need a relationship, or labels, or expectations. Sometimes they just need someone who cares enough to be there.
You got me through some incredibly difficult times without ever judging me.
Now everything feels like it's falling apart again, and for the first time in years I find myself wishing I could just spend one more night at yours. Just one more hug. One more conversation. One more chance to recharge with my friend before facing the world again.
But I can't, because you're gone.
I don't think I realised quite how much comfort I took from knowing you were there until you weren't.
I love you, Johnny. Thank you for every laugh, every hug, every late-night conversation, and even every 5am coffee to wake me up so we can hit cheddar car boot! You helped me carry more than you probably knew.
I'll miss you forever.
Paulina
09/06/2026